Beautiful World

During the four weeks when the PTSD symptoms were gone I had relief--a lot of relief. I felt more energy and I accomplished things I'd b...

I usually get up in the mornings between 5:00 and 5:30 a.m. Then I put in some work hours, go running, and make sure the kids get to seminar...

So--yesterday was a complete and utter failure in pretty much every way. This doesn't happen to me often. 1. I made a mistake in one o...

This morning I took some time to be alone. I read a book I've been putting off. I ran a few miles. I cleaned. I went for a walk. Our wea...

There are many conversations I have with Therapist which I do not post because they expose parts of me I do not like--at all. They showcase ...

I gained fifteen pounds. On purpose. This sounds crazy, I know, but for about two months now I've been feeling like I'm finally in c...

me: You know how I'm always saying, "Stop buying stuff! It's just going to sit around and collect dust and add more clutter!...

Therapist caught me online this week. We chatted for a few minutes. I told him I don't need him to check up on me--then I asked him a co...

For the past twelve months I have practiced remembering. I have rules for this: 1. The memory must be pleasant, or at the very least, munda...

My mother's breast cancer is in remission. Before the chemo treatments began nearly two years ago, I spoke with my father about my mot...

I've been whining here for a very long time. It seemed the only place where I could talk about the things I thought sounded crazy, irrat...

When you read the directions on a chocolate orange, and they say, "Whack! Then unwrap!", it is best to choose a hard surface for t...

Yes, it's a therapy assignment--but a very old one I couldn't do before because I wasn't ready--and I've tweaked it a bit to...

Slowly, life is becoming "normal" again. It's been about two weeks without even a hint of PTSD. It's been awhile since thi...

Recently I was asked point blank why I stay with Darrin. The impetus behind the question came from a conversation with a friend in which we ...

Therapist asked me when I felt the most "Me". My answer was that this occurred when I was teaching, but now that I've had time...

I am very protective of my deepest feelings and beliefs. I rarely share them for a number of reasons: 1. My motives can be questioned--and ...

Some convenience store/truck stops along I-80 have soda fountains. And some soda fountains have add-ins you can put in your drinks. And most...

Sometimes Therapist says things that are so completely obvious I want to roll my eyes at him. I don't--because obvious or not, the thing...

If you spend enough time with me it will soon become clear that I have a mental deficiency: I cannot differentiate between snowmen and pengu...

Life has become confusing, but not in an upsetting way. I keep discovering things new to me--things people around me simply accept. Today I ...