Beautiful World

Quirky Things I Love: 1. Post-it Notes. Especially ones in fun colors or shapes. But I use the large lined ones the most. 2. Pens with i...

I have difficulty with this. I get caught up in moments and pictures and feelings and people. Therapist says it has to do with dissociation....

I have an extremely bright young piano student named Annie. She's eight years old. I've been friends with her family for many years ...

Last July, the morning after Tabitha attempted to take her life, I awoke at 4:00 a.m. This is not unusual for me. Everyone else was still sl...

With apologies to the truckers and travelers stranded in our small town because of road closures: The snowfall today is lovely; large flakes...

A couple of weeks ago I sat behind my parents in church. I saw my mother whisper something to my father. He smiled, she giggled, and I thoug...

I hate folding laundry. Actually, that's not really true. I don't mind folding it at all. But the genius who designed my house pla...

I haven't written here for a few days because I want to write something uplifting or fun or happy. But the truth is, given my current si...

Therapist says it would be unnatural for me not to have bad days sometimes. Today is a bad day. Therapist says having bad days does not ma...

This afternoon I experienced my first "alone time" in three weeks. For someone like me, that's an eternity. I've been th...

Tabitha gave me a new bathrobe for Christmas. She's been telling me for years that my former one was "so big you can swim in it, Mo...

I am spending limited time online for the next little while. I'll be working online, of course, and checking email periodically. And I c...

Tabitha is home for about a week. I'm so glad. I cannot imagine spending Christmas without her. Today she'll help me go through her ...

This post will be ambiguous, maybe. If it seems that way, it's probably because the things I'm discussing are still a bit unclear to...

Yesterday a few people tried to talk with me about the outrageously tragic shooting in a Connecticut elementary school. My responses, in gen...

I am drowning in rehearsals. This is a good thing. I have a huge concert Saturday evening and another on Sunday afternoon, at which point I ...

I've been sitting at my desk most of the morning staring at laundry I need to fold and thinking of my kitchen floor. It really wants me ...

I think it's normal to feel disconnected from people sometimes. We become overwhelmed with the struggles in our lives or very busy or we...

About a month ago, when I was least expecting it and definitely not strong enough to receive it, Therapist sent me an email letting me know ...

I haven't been writing for a little while because recent days have been unusual and unpredictable, and quite honestly, I just haven'...

I frequently have days when I feel this. I used to believe it was a unique personality flaw--an inability to accept human companionship on a...

A few weeks ago my father asked me if I would be willing to drive my mother to Utah. She wanted to attend "Time Out For Women" whi...

We all make them. Sometimes we're correct, but often we're not. A couple of days ago, due to some assumptions he's made about Jo...

I'm a little bit surprised at myself. I began this journey nearly eight years ago. I began chronicling my journey in a different blog ...