Beautiful World

It's getting too cold to run outside in the mornings. I'm toying with the idea of a morning gym visit (weights and treadmill) and a ...

1. I haven't talked about this here because I didn't want to talk about it at all. But about a ten days ago, while visiting Utah, my...

A long time ago there was a David in my life. He was young. He spent time with me and with my family. We loved him. I believe we love him st...

This morning a hot air balloon, complete with enthusiastically waving riders, floated over the house across the street. Not something you se...

Facebook makes me tired. Well, let's be real about this... pretty much everything makes me tired lately. I've come to understand...

Sometimes it helps to talk about things here. And I've sort of been doing it in conjunction with this topic for about 8 months now-- sin...

1. Cooking with AtP and Brozy. And trying crazy foods with them. And laughing just because it's fun to be together. 2. Playing with Bo...

I have a very good therapist. I know there have been times when I've poked fun at him, or been angry at him, but I'm aware that he i...

I need to take a break for awhile. People who know me personally, know where to find me. But before I go I need to say just a few things: ...

I haven't been able to talk for awhile. There's too much going on inside. Overwhelmingly too much. Last week one of the officers w...

Today was difficult. Without going into details, I'll just say that I've had days when I was happier. That being said, I decided t...

It's been almost a week since I finished talking to authorities and legal people about what happened to me many years ago. Jeff went wit...

Today is my birthday. I believe I've written about this before, but usually the day after, because my birthday is usually a very emoti...

I put away all my posts about Jeff and official reports and feeling stressed. PTSD is an interesting monster. When it's invisible, unk...

I glanced over this blog and her sister blog, "Magical World" this weekend. So many posts about how I'm doing better and heali...

I just need to say this for the record: I've been wrong about a lot of things I've written in this blog.

I didn't understand what making a report would mean-- what it would reveal about how much further I have to go in my healing. I had reac...

Today I filed an official report. Jeff was to be contacted, as well, so that he could file his report. There is no statute of limitations. T...

I'm having lots of ups and downs lately. Stress does that to me. Father-in-law went home yesterday. Adam was the last one to leave for...

Yup. I am. Right now I'm still learning to use my new hip and I'm limited to using the treadmill-- one minute running/two minutes ...

My father-in-law does nothing. I'm pretty sure he wants to do something, but unless someone suggests it, he does nothing. On Saturday he...

Darrin is the youngest in his family. I am one of the oldest. My dad is in his late 60s. Darrin's dad is ancient. Because of his ancie...

Because sometimes when I'm unable to manage PTSD (not even close to "managing" right now), I think about weird things, and ima...

Years ago I was in the pediatrician's office, waiting for my child to be called to an exam room. I was pretending to read a magazine. I ...

I am a hoarder. Not in the normal sense of the word-- I hate clutter and I don't collect things. I routinely sort and purge my belongi...

Therapist sent me an email today. Part of the email was this sentence, "What I want you to know is that you have inspired me with the w...

I have been blogging more than eight years. This blog, Beautiful World, is and extension of another blog, Magical World, which I began in Ma...

I got home from New York to find a letter and five phone messages letting me know that my mammogram screening showed a problem and I needed ...