Beautiful World

Last time I spoke with Therapist we talked about my nightmares. He asked me what happened in those. I said I didn't know. I didn't w...

I know. I need to talk to Therapist. But I want to wait until I can talk like a person. It's sort of ridiculous to go to someone for hel...

Before I could begin with my grand intentions to finish what I began so long ago, my grandmother passed  away. She would be 98 next month. I...

I'm back. I'm not back because I miss this place and can't do without it, but because I'm finishing what I started a decade ...

Let's talk about Josh Duggar. And while we're at it, let's say a little bit about pedophiles, sexual abuse, and other topical de...

This blog is finished. But every once in awhile I need to write something that can't go in the blog I now use-- the one under my real ...

I'm supposed to be writing a lesson plan about Bartok and fashioning it so that it can be delivered by one of my graduate assistants in ...

I am feeling fierce once again. That sounds weird unless you know me. It used to be a part of who I am. I was fiercely determined to do wh...

It's getting too cold to run outside in the mornings. I'm toying with the idea of a morning gym visit (weights and treadmill) and a ...

1. I haven't talked about this here because I didn't want to talk about it at all. But about a ten days ago, while visiting Utah, my...

A long time ago there was a David in my life. He was young. He spent time with me and with my family. We loved him. I believe we love him st...

This morning a hot air balloon, complete with enthusiastically waving riders, floated over the house across the street. Not something you se...

Facebook makes me tired. Well, let's be real about this... pretty much everything makes me tired lately. I've come to understand...

Sometimes it helps to talk about things here. And I've sort of been doing it in conjunction with this topic for about 8 months now-- sin...

1. Cooking with AtP and Brozy. And trying crazy foods with them. And laughing just because it's fun to be together. 2. Playing with Bo...

I have a very good therapist. I know there have been times when I've poked fun at him, or been angry at him, but I'm aware that he i...

I need to take a break for awhile. People who know me personally, know where to find me. But before I go I need to say just a few things: ...

I haven't been able to talk for awhile. There's too much going on inside. Overwhelmingly too much. Last week one of the officers w...

Today was difficult. Without going into details, I'll just say that I've had days when I was happier. That being said, I decided t...

It's been almost a week since I finished talking to authorities and legal people about what happened to me many years ago. Jeff went wit...

Today is my birthday. I believe I've written about this before, but usually the day after, because my birthday is usually a very emoti...

I put away all my posts about Jeff and official reports and feeling stressed. PTSD is an interesting monster. When it's invisible, unk...

I glanced over this blog and her sister blog, "Magical World" this weekend. So many posts about how I'm doing better and heali...

I just need to say this for the record: I've been wrong about a lot of things I've written in this blog.

I didn't understand what making a report would mean-- what it would reveal about how much further I have to go in my healing. I had reac...