Beautiful World

A few years ago Tabitha was going through some terrible times. She would have breakdowns every day - sometimes more than one a day. I never ...

This is usually a beautiful day for me. I love Easter. Today, though, not so much. I'm not better yet. As Therapist would say, ...

Therapist called me last Wednesday. I had sent him a very short email that morning, briefly letting him know about the suicidal thoughts/dep...

This morning, very early, I called a suicide hotline. And then I hung up. Because what would they tell me to do? Get help. Go to a hospital....

I Googled, "I'm sad" today. The result was page after page of ways to cheer up, interspersed with the odd mental health articl...

I've had more than one friend who was single on Valentine's Day tell me that I just don't understand. I've never been in my ...

I think the answer is that one day you just get tired of fighting for something that's not going to happen--some process or feeling or s...

And one day I will have a garden again. Probably not this year, but possibly next.

Early this week I realized I felt okay. I've had no panic attacks or anxiety for a little while now. I don't feel sad constantly. I ...

No classes to teach this semester, only private students and accompanying. My continuing education is finished and I'm ready for the tax...

Camaraderie: The quality of affording easy familiarity and sociability Intimacy: 1. Close or warm friendship  2. A feeling of being intima...

This is a quote from a celebrity who was a domestic abuse victim. I'm not sure why, but when I read her story, those words felt like my ...

I didn't have a lot of time this semester, so rather than dealing with PTSD, I ignored it. Which means I lived on low-level anxiety and ...

I suppose this old blog is nearing the end of its existence. That's probably as it should be. I've been emotionally attached to this...

I am addressing the decision to adapt or face extinction. People do it everyday without even knowing it's happening. My awareness of it ...

A couple of years ago I noticed that my support base was shrinking. This was not unexpected. Indeed, I saw it coming even before the support...

Sometimes there are just really bad days.

I've been thinking a lot about love. Surprise! I've been talking with Tabitha and Adam about love. I'm learning a number of th...

Minor health glitches. Last Monday I had a nosebleed. It lasted about ten minutes and stopped. Then I had another on Tuesday. And Wednesday....

This morning a goldfinch stopped to visit my crabapple tree as it migrated through. The tiny bird hid easily amongst the leaves, but it'...

Letting go has been a good thing, I think, and it really was a gift. I think there comes a time in everyone's life when they recognize t...

Do you feel old now? Well, you're not. Ten years is only a drop in the bucket when you consider how many years you have left, but that...

I was told by a good friend once that I could be a good leader if... Then he went on to talk about all the reasons I could never be a good...

Yesterday was my birthday. This marks the tenth birthday post I have made since I began blogging. They're not all here in this blog, but...