Beautiful World

Most often, I grow flowers and herbs in the garden area in front of my house. That's good. Sometimes I grow things inside of me. That...

I don't really have words to say what I'm feeling. Forty-nine people went out to enjoy an evening. Some were probably with the perso...

I promised myself that when Darrin got a job I would take some time to regroup. About a month ago, he began a temporary job. It will end in ...

Getting used to things...people...places...circumstances... I suppose eventually one grows accustomed to most things in life. And then thing...

Okay, let's lay this out and look at it carefully: 1. I've been under a lot of stress for a very long time. That's not chang...

New development, sort of. It's a shift in paradigms that's been taking place over the last couple of years. I've been unwelcomin...

I don't really know how to write about this. It's been hanging around for a long time, but words escape me. When I try to explain ve...

My mother has dementia. I'm not sure how many times I've written about this. She seems perfectly normal. If you met her today, you...

Lots to think about tonight. I don't know that I'll have the words for the thoughts. Probably that doesn't matter. There are m...

I recently encountered this sentence in one of my transcription jobs. For whatever reason, it's running in a loop in my head. I keep thi...

A few years ago Tabitha was going through some terrible times. She would have breakdowns every day - sometimes more than one a day. I never ...

This is usually a beautiful day for me. I love Easter. Today, though, not so much. I'm not better yet. As Therapist would say, ...

Therapist called me last Wednesday. I had sent him a very short email that morning, briefly letting him know about the suicidal thoughts/dep...

This morning, very early, I called a suicide hotline. And then I hung up. Because what would they tell me to do? Get help. Go to a hospital....

I Googled, "I'm sad" today. The result was page after page of ways to cheer up, interspersed with the odd mental health articl...

I've had more than one friend who was single on Valentine's Day tell me that I just don't understand. I've never been in my ...

I think the answer is that one day you just get tired of fighting for something that's not going to happen--some process or feeling or s...

And one day I will have a garden again. Probably not this year, but possibly next.

Early this week I realized I felt okay. I've had no panic attacks or anxiety for a little while now. I don't feel sad constantly. I ...

No classes to teach this semester, only private students and accompanying. My continuing education is finished and I'm ready for the tax...

Camaraderie: The quality of affording easy familiarity and sociability Intimacy: 1. Close or warm friendship  2. A feeling of being intima...

This is a quote from a celebrity who was a domestic abuse victim. I'm not sure why, but when I read her story, those words felt like my ...

I didn't have a lot of time this semester, so rather than dealing with PTSD, I ignored it. Which means I lived on low-level anxiety and ...

I suppose this old blog is nearing the end of its existence. That's probably as it should be. I've been emotionally attached to this...