Beautiful World

I started this blog a long time ago because I needed a place where I could be honest. I think even when I was trying to be honest, though, t...

I spent the week in Laramie. That was weird. I didn't contact old friends or try to meet up with people. I don't know why. Maybe I...

I've been doing better as the week has progressed. Until today. Now I'm back in complete panic mode. One of my students was targeted...

Usually when this happens, I wait to talk about it. I wait until the calm has come. Otherwise, I'm fairly certain the post will feel pas...

Usually when this happens, I wait to talk about it. I wait until the calm has come. Otherwise, I'm fairly certain the post will feel pas...

Usually when this happens, I wait to talk about it. I wait until the calm has come. Otherwise, I'm fairly certain the post will feel pas...

For years I have asserted that I will be okay. It's who I am. I've spent my life perfecting the art of being okay. And I will. Wha...

Today is my birthday. :) I will celebrate by continuing to pack up my home so we can move on Saturday. Well, we. I'll be staying behin...

Midnight, and I should be sleeping. How I feel the need to keep typing after doing transcription this entire day is baffling to me. Too much...

I've stayed away from here for the past three weeks. I've cycled through so many emotions, and I'm learning that I can't rea...

That's how long I'm giving the post-anesthesia depression. I think it's reasonable. About one week per hour that I was in surger...

I'm actually not sure why I write here anymore. Maybe to keep a record? I'm pretty sure it's not because I feel the need to shar...

That's what this was not. 1. My insurance has denied the claim. All of it. Apparently, if I was in the ER, bleeding to death, and an e...

Things I've been doing to prepare for surgery: 1. Running. Every day. Sometimes twice a day. Because I can't stop panicking. And...

I am having trouble coping with this day. Yesterday I got bad news about my health. Major surgery-type news. I can't even think about ...

I've never really felt like I was home. Anywhere. Probably this has something to do with the fact that I lived in six different cities/t...

I'm not kidding. Also, I'm not politically correct. Do not feel sorry for the mentally challenged? the reality benders? those who ca...

Most often, I grow flowers and herbs in the garden area in front of my house. That's good. Sometimes I grow things inside of me. That...

I don't really have words to say what I'm feeling. Forty-nine people went out to enjoy an evening. Some were probably with the perso...

I promised myself that when Darrin got a job I would take some time to regroup. About a month ago, he began a temporary job. It will end in ...

Getting used to things...people...places...circumstances... I suppose eventually one grows accustomed to most things in life. And then thing...

Okay, let's lay this out and look at it carefully: 1. I've been under a lot of stress for a very long time. That's not chang...

New development, sort of. It's a shift in paradigms that's been taking place over the last couple of years. I've been unwelcomin...

I don't really know how to write about this. It's been hanging around for a long time, but words escape me. When I try to explain ve...