Beautiful World

I've put off writing about this because it causes all sorts of unwelcome and overwhelming emotions. Therapist assigned me to write down ...

I'm supposed to write more about my therapy stuff tonight, but I don't want to. Tonight I want to be on a warm beach, listening to...

During his interview, my father discussed with me the extent of mental and physical disability suffered by the person who molested me. Brent...

I interviewed my mother over the phone first. She wasn't present when the incident happened. On top of that, she was experiencing a diff...

And now I know, I think. But I still don't know how to talk about it. Retelling what happened, what I can piece together from flashbac...

But I will try. Therapist has said on many occasions that, given the abuse and assault I have experienced, and the ages at which those occ...

I need to sleep. My brain wants to think. Incompatible. I practice in sections. Each piece is divided and marked before I ever begin learn...

Talking to my parents about their recollections of the bathroom molestation incident. That sucked. Indeed, it did.

I really did try to not think about the bathroom thing. And here's what happened: Wednesday: I got up and went running. And everything...

Today Therapist told me that I'm not really in a place, physically, where I have what I need to work on the things that are becoming inc...

Today, springlike, made me wish for a walk. I didn't take one. Still resting that strained tendon and hoping for healing soon. But I wil...

Okay, this has to be short because it's after 1:00 a.m., and I really do need to be sleeping. However, today I hit a wall. I've be...

Stable today. When PTSD feels managed, I occasionally feel the need to just spend time with someone. Not needy, discuss feelings, tell me ...

Someone once asked me why I waited so long to get help for PTSD. I'll be honest. I just walked away and pretended I hadn't heard. At...

Eight years ago Obama became the first black American president. And lots of people hated him. Really, really hated him. He was called Satan...

Sometimes I can't stop thinking. Probably that happens to lots of people. The trouble is that when my brain is in overdrive, I want to u...

I am slowly reclaiming myself. It's difficult to describe what this means. Also, it sounds completely melodramatic. That being said, ...

And then I came home.  Except it doesn't feel like home.  Therapist and I talked a bit while I was away because I'd had time ...

That makes me giggle a little. I think those words have come out of my mouth more than any others. My mother speaks of the time when I was a...

Today a Facebook acquaintance posted something she wrote ten years ago. It was a lovely memory from a time before I met her. I thought I...

Again. Therapist tells me the regression I perceive is exaggerated. He also said if his life was close to mine in terms of stress - physic...

I suppose I need to mention that I'm writing this at a very obnoxious time in my life. I'm experiencing random dips throughout the d...