Beautiful World

Therapist once told me when I got to the point when I stopped "collecting" people, and allowed them to stay in my life as long as ...

It's been a tough week. As my work week is six days long, we're now on the downside and I have only two more days before I can rest....

There are times when I like to pretend I don't have low blood sugar...as in, I like to pretend this every moment of every day. So last n...

There is still sadness but it's not new. Periodically I feel it pushing at my soul, reminding me that there have been inexcusable abuses...

I've been thinking a lot about DJ. I know it's good that he's independent, living on his own, and happy. Adam says DJ inherite...

There is an incredible lightness inside of me. I've not felt like this for nearly two years. No flashbacks for nearly seven months. No...

I posted the video clip in my previous post because we actually were visited by a plumber Thursday. He arrived in the morning around nine an...

Some amazing person who has actually read both my "Samantha" blogs for the past five years sent me this today. My phone number i...

Today is Valentine's Day. Much has happened in the past week. Darrin has his blood tested every three months. I do it annually, partly...

I'm thinking of taking a break--from blogging, but also from everything else. More than one reason exists for this pondering, but the la...

There are times when I feel guilty posting about my inner angst--which is completely silly given that this is a blog and I'm really both...

It's been about two weeks since I've written anything here. During the first week I didn't even think about it. I was having dif...

During the four weeks when the PTSD symptoms were gone I had relief--a lot of relief. I felt more energy and I accomplished things I'd b...

I usually get up in the mornings between 5:00 and 5:30 a.m. Then I put in some work hours, go running, and make sure the kids get to seminar...

So--yesterday was a complete and utter failure in pretty much every way. This doesn't happen to me often. 1. I made a mistake in one o...

This morning I took some time to be alone. I read a book I've been putting off. I ran a few miles. I cleaned. I went for a walk. Our wea...

There are many conversations I have with Therapist which I do not post because they expose parts of me I do not like--at all. They showcase ...

I gained fifteen pounds. On purpose. This sounds crazy, I know, but for about two months now I've been feeling like I'm finally in c...

me: You know how I'm always saying, "Stop buying stuff! It's just going to sit around and collect dust and add more clutter!...

Therapist caught me online this week. We chatted for a few minutes. I told him I don't need him to check up on me--then I asked him a co...

For the past twelve months I have practiced remembering. I have rules for this: 1. The memory must be pleasant, or at the very least, munda...