Beautiful World

Adam : I've seen the one at Little America. It has couches and chairs and lots of mirrors. Why? Why do the women's restrooms have th...

With few exceptions, I hate chick flicks for the following reasons: 1. No romantic music ever begins playing when I make out with my husba...

I think I had my first one at age 17. I know. That's not midlife; but when one is born ancient, midlife crises are allowed to happen a...

1. Go to bed at night. I'm sleepy. I know it will be comfy and warm. I know Darrin is waiting for me. I still don't want to. And no ...

This will be brief because I'm tired and I need to sleep; but I want to record this because it's new and I think it's important....

Therapist believes my problems have innumerable roots, but I told him of one experience he believes is pivotal. I've not been able to re...

My mother has anxiety disorder. I know. Shocking. However, compared to hers, my anxiety is Whoville in comparison to Horton. One might e...

Our mini-vacation has been so much fun. We visited a bajillion amazing people and ate good food and slept in a tiny room--all four of us. To...

Okay--I admit that my current emotional disaster is my own fault and if I'd stop working like a crazy person I would be able to regroup ...

I've been told by friends and therapists that this is an important step in healing. By less sensitive friends, I've been told it...

PTSD Day Three. I'm taking my kids on a mini-vacation next weekend. When I planned this a couple of months ago I was going to tuck in ...

Today was sort of ugly. I knew it was coming yesterday afternoon, and when bedtime hit I couldn't sleep for a long time. When I finally ...

Okay--that last post was very subdued in comparison to how I feel about what I wrote...the part about talking about the things that have hap...

Tabitha's anxiety disorder has expanded into depression. It's not debilitating. It's not constant. But she feels the depression ...

Today I danced in my kitchen. And before you laugh at me, take a moment and admit that you've done the same thing--if not in the kitchen...

Therapist once told me when I got to the point when I stopped "collecting" people, and allowed them to stay in my life as long as ...

It's been a tough week. As my work week is six days long, we're now on the downside and I have only two more days before I can rest....

There are times when I like to pretend I don't have low blood sugar...as in, I like to pretend this every moment of every day. So last n...

There is still sadness but it's not new. Periodically I feel it pushing at my soul, reminding me that there have been inexcusable abuses...

I've been thinking a lot about DJ. I know it's good that he's independent, living on his own, and happy. Adam says DJ inherite...

There is an incredible lightness inside of me. I've not felt like this for nearly two years. No flashbacks for nearly seven months. No...

I posted the video clip in my previous post because we actually were visited by a plumber Thursday. He arrived in the morning around nine an...

Some amazing person who has actually read both my "Samantha" blogs for the past five years sent me this today. My phone number i...

Today is Valentine's Day. Much has happened in the past week. Darrin has his blood tested every three months. I do it annually, partly...

I'm thinking of taking a break--from blogging, but also from everything else. More than one reason exists for this pondering, but the la...