Beautiful World

I realized last year that I have divided my life into different "people" because somehow, those divisions help me understand my fe...

Cast: Child Samantha Adolescent Samantha Teen Samantha Pre -therapy Samantha In-therapy Samantha In-therapy Samantha: I know you won't l...

Some days are beautiful. Today was one of those. I skipped my 8:00 a.m. block of meetings (because I was really tired after my lack of sleep...

When I was 16 I decided I would be happy. And I was--determinedly, fervently, vibrantly happy. I radiated it. I laughed often. I was delight...

Apparently, even if the stupid questionnaire thingy Therapist makes me fill out every session says I'm making significant progress, if I...

Tomorrow morning I will leave to drive six hours to see Therapist. And the only real problem I can see with this is that I haven't slept...

So, feeling all proud of myself, I posted a few days ago (don't look for it--I've removed the post) about how I had finally been abl...

Days like today are difficult. "...men are that they might have joy..." I have joy. I could never say otherwise. I have three beau...

There's no question. I am. Today I was assigned a new Visiting Teaching companion. You'll never guess who it is . Yup. That's ri...

When I wrote a recent email, these are the ads Google thought applicable: 1. Bed wetting. 2. Sexually compulsive? 3. The Jolie-Pitt twins. 4...

Today I came across this blog entry from a blogger who lauded himself for his kindness and open-mindedness. I figured, since he was talking...

Me: Adam, go get in the shower, please. (Adam and DJ, simultaneously) Adam: I just did! DJ: He just did! DJ: That's why I can't show...

If any of you received an inordinate number of texts from my phone last night around 9:00 p.m., I offer my apologies. Tabitha stole my phone...

Tabitha: Mom, I just wanted to tell you that all my friends think you're really cool. At least, I think they do. And when we talk about ...

More changing. Inside. It's inevitable, I suppose. People aren't built to remain in the same state. Even if nothing changes in their...

Up late again. This always seems to happen when I'm thinking. I went for a walk with Sully yesterday. A jogger passed us. I pointed out ...

The funny thing is that I haven't had a nightmare or flashback for nearly two weeks. Even when I was feeling stress a week ago they were...

Because he might be the first person in the world to become a vegan environmentalist author olympic-swimmer musician engineer organic-farmer...

Life is so funny. Three years ago mine was well-ordered--it wouldn't dream of being otherwise. Any negative thought or emotion was burie...

Having a moment when I miss everybody !! That's all. But if you were here, I would hug you.

I know. I said I wouldn't talk about this anymore. But I've reached some conclusions, and after all, this is my blog. I can decide w...

Someday I believe I will simply live without analyzing. I will experience each emotion and event without looking for ulterior motives or tie...

So I did the things I'm supposed to do to help me manage the feelings and stress which come when PTSD is more intense than usual, and t...

Me: Adam, this afternoon while I'm at work, I'd like you to wash a batch of dark clothes. You have to put the soap in first, let it ...

Someone asked me what happens when I start feeling the effects of PTSD . I had never really tried to explain it before, so it was difficult....

I'm supposed to be in Sunday School. I left the class last week because I had just spent a week with Darrin's family and I was exha...

You know that button on your car key that unlocks your car doors? No matter how many times you push it, it won't open the front door of ...

...but this is by far my all-time favorite...especially given how I feel about dentists, and all that... By the way, thanks AJ! I needed tha...

...of this...because I've endured more than my share of odd conductors in my symphony orchestra playing days...

AJ sent me this and it reminded me....

I've had five beautiful days. Five. Five. Five. I don't understand why this is happening. I usually have at least three or four week...

Dear Client, I have prepared your taxes for the past twelve years. I thought you understood some "givens" about my services, but i...

Just because I think it's funny.

Just because I think this is cool.

I have warped my children. I know--stating the obvious... About five years ago I discovered a book, Nancy Drew's Guide to Life . It caug...

I just got this from Adam--who is not supposed to be texting during class: "Heya mom this is adam Snoochie boochie noochies" Truly...

So sometimes after I shower I don't get dressed right away. My kids are at school, Darrin is at work, and quite frankly, clothes are an ...

Adam: Do I have to mix it? Me: If you plan to bake the brownies, they sort of have to be mixed, yes. Otherwise you have baked eggs with a si...

WARNING: Yeah, this is one of those posts in which I discuss sex...just in case you'd rather not read about that... I receive Google ale...